I grew up gay in an era when gay was beyond taboo, and bad, bad things were done to you if it became known, or even was just suspected, that you were gay. “She attempted to stand up for her right to equality, to pleasure, and to having sex in a way that pleased her too, and she was instead dismissed, coerced, and wounded.” When, as a teenager, my mother threw at me “When you have children of your own, you will understand!!” I assured her I was NOT going to have any. For exactly the two reasons you mention, although I framed them slightly differently, but same gist. As a child, I had already made the decision I was not going to bring any children into this world. You took the words right out of my mouth. If you have Lilith here, you know what I mean.” They also often fear that their own darkness and pain will be inflicted upon their children. “Because of this, many people with Lilith in the 5th choose not to become parents for fear of not being able to protect their own children from the darkness of the world. You were denied the chance to have a real, innocent, free childhood.” “With this placement, you probably grew up quickly. Yep, pleasure and me have always had a tenuous relationship. ”It may seem as if life’s pleasures are always either denied or warped.” I do, and pretty much all that you wrote applies and resonates! So, thank you very much for holding this mirror for me to see myself and nod in recognition. Idk where the fuck my creativity went either. I never feel like ‘the prize.’ and I never feel like I took home the head of the boar. not being pretty enough and sort of not trying to shed body weight creates limited options and I’ve learned that one night stands don’t work. My appetites also tend not to be sated the way I hope. And some past life stuff asdociaĪs far as creativity, it’s fucking hard to turn that tap on, I fucking suck at it, people usually don’t approve of it when I display it, when I’m front and center it goes haywire. I also have a 12th house Mars opposed to Venus. At that time I related to that movie the Piano Teacher, only cause the desires got warped and directed in weird ways internally. But a thwarted and repressed sexuality resulted along with a long virginity. I got in trouble with psychologists as a kid for my ideation and they thought I was abused. I did relate to your Lilith in the fourth post but I am more of a 5th house wounds gal. In an equal and whole sign house system, but not in placidus. I have this placement tightly conjunct Chiron. So shine on.ĭo you have Lilith in the 5th house? What is your experience? And finally, we don’t create and express ourselves in order to please others. It is our birthright and we should be empowered to seek it on our terms and for our own benefit. But there are a few pieces of advice I think apply across the board. This is just a sample of the ways that Lilith could manifest in the 5th house. It always seems to fail to meet some outside expectation, and is instead relegated to the margins. With Lilith here, your creativity has been met with disdain or cynicism. It is concerned with artistic expression and bringing forth something new into the world. The 5th house is more than sex and children. Either way, the goal is to take back control and confront sexuality on your own terms. With Lilith here, you have certainly experienced wounds in terms of sex and pleasure, and you responded either with a total rejection of sexuality or with promiscuity. She attempted to stand up for her right to equality, to pleasure, and to having sex in a way that pleased her too, and she was instead dismissed, coerced, and wounded. The 5th house rules sexuality, and here we often find a very literal interpretation of Lilith’s myth. If you do have children, you will be hyperaware of their experience and be fiercely protective, making sure they have the innocence you were denied. If you have Lilith here, you know what I mean. Because of this, many people with Lilith in the 5th choose not to become parents for fear of not being able to protect their own children from the darkness of the world. You were denied the chance to have a real, innocent, free childhood. With this placement, you probably grew up quickly. It may seem as if life’s pleasures are always either denied or warped. If you have Lilith in the 5th house of your chart, her themes will manifest in terms of sexuality, pleasure, creativity, and children.
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